
I wish it happened like this!
(I am taking another writing course and the first writing spark was “Labour”. I thought it was very apropos considering my baby boy just had another birthday, and I am finding it hard to grasp the idea that three years has passed since he was delivered!
So here is my birth story – well a short snippet of it anyway – of my labour pains and glory, the second time around).
I don’t remember getting to the hospital. I don’t remember being ushered into my private room. I don’t remember getting undressed and putting on that horrible starchy hospital gown. I can’t tell you if there was a T.V. in the room, or what color the room even was. I don’t remember what the names of the lovely nurses were who helped me through the birth of my baby boy. What I do remember is immediately asking for drugs. “I NEED something, NOW!” I told the nurse frantically.
With the birth of my daughter I managed to get through 23 hours of labour, including 4 hours of pushing all without a single dose of pain medication. I didn’t set out to do this, but when I asked if I could have something they explained to me that it was too late. I know there are some women who use a drug free birth as a badge of honour. While I am proud to say that I somehow managed to get through my first birth drug free, I went into my second KNOWING I was going to ask for something to help ease the pain. Badge of honour be damned!
However upon arriving at the hospital, the nurse’s first concern was my shaking limbs. For some reason from the moment the labour pains started my whole body started to shake. Even though I had been through the labour and birthing process once before, I felt I was just as ill-equipped and unprepared the second time around…in fact, maybe even more so. I have a feeling my body’s negative reaction had something to do with the fact I knew what was coming.
Once the nurse determined that my trembling wasn’t being caused by a fever, she encased me in warm blankets in an attempt to calm my shakes (nerves). I was then offered Nitrous Oxide, which unfortunately immediately made me feel nauseous. Having the mask covering my nose and mouth also made me feel claustrophobic, and I ended up having a mini panic attack.
After crying and severely trembling through my next few contractions I was offered some sort of narcotic via my intravenous tube. Within 10 minutes not only was I crying, trembling and still in pain, I started vomiting too. On top of all that I felt like my entire body was covered in pins & needles, and I was severely light-headed. The tingling feeling as well as the light head was apparently caused from me being so diligent (or rather I should say, over-diligent) with my breathing. I was basically hyperventilating myself through my contractions.
After what seemed like an eternity, the doctor on call finally gave the okay to give me an epidural. Let’s just get something straight. Epidurals scare the crap out of me. There is something about inserting a large needle near your spine that just seems so wrong to me. However those thoughts never even crossed my mind. I gladly accepted the numbing needle, and then the large needle that they sunk into my lower back to try and ease the pains of labour.
After I received the epidural I went into what I can only call bliss. My body stopped shaking and feeling tingly, my nausea (and vomiting) went away, my breathing went back to normal, and the best part is I felt nothing, absolutely nothing! In fact, I was in such a state of harmony that I actually giggled my way through the whole birthing process. Rips, tares, stitches, and all!
While there is no way I could have even received an honorary mention for being a trooper with the birth of my second child, I learned something very important that day. There is nothing wrong with asking for something to help ease the pain (or obliterate it all together, as in my case). It does not make you any less of a mother or woman.
I have also become a huge fan of epidurals. If for some reason my husband’s vasectomy reverses itself, and god forbid I end up having to go through the labour and birthing process once again, there will be no messing around. The words “I NEED an epidural!” will most certainly be my first request!